So this whole month has been ridiculous literally. I have found out so much from family and people that i have considered as my family in the past ... I have been hurt this month i have cried many nights , but there has also been a bright side to all this rain. i still have not made up in my mind what college i will be attending but i have made up in my mind to FINALLY BE HAPPY. Because i have found that i am a SURVIVOR and it felt great to hear that today . ( My computer is about to die so to be continued...)
I already consider you as family because , you saw me hurt when i didn't want anybody else to see me hurt. You saw me cry , i mean literally .... And you helped me through some tough times in my life , and yet i ask for nothing but love from you. Because no matter what people say i believe you are truly a good person ! And i appreciate it when you be honest with me , it is better hearing it straight from you then from other resources. I understand that i could be clingy or adaptive ( well somewhat , hopefully i am stating it right ) at times , but it is only because i see you as family .
I have had so much stuff happen , good and bad that i have tried to reach out to you and tell you . Some you have acknowledged and some you still do not know of . I can not continue to reach out if you do not stick out your hand for me , to grab unto. Its so sad because I thought i had someone that i could always talk to and be around no matter what , but this is what happens when you get too close to people. Unfortunately i guess this was a case of a big mistake , but i cant really call it a big mistake because if it wasn't for you , i would have gave up along time ago.
To be continued. . .