So for the last couple of weeks , i have been noticing something off about my boyfriend texting. But to make my self feel better i just tell my self and him that I am just going crazy and maybe its just me. Knowing good well its just not me , most likely if I feel some type of way , it is really that way. Hopefully i am making since ! Anyway i finally have gotten the chance to have " the talk " . . .
The talk was me talking to him about whats going to happen in OUR future , and that went left really quick . All he replied with was "okayyy ? " As if i was talking to my self or my personal favorite " I don't know what to say" , i was a little hurt , all of this for what ? But I care and i started to fall for my boyfriend more and more , i cant give up now , i cant just let my relationship go downhill . By the way i told him , i feel like we are going down hill fast and i felt like there was nothing i could do about it and he said " Is that really how you feel ?" And i replied" Yes well I do not know" , I was scared to tell him yes and keep it that way. I want to fight for us , I am trying and distance and work is are biggest enemies at the moments : Its gotten so worse i see him once a week and if that none, I just need him to try with me . . . I need more from him mentally and physically i just do not know how to tell him with out shutting down. Next month could be hell for me or it could be great and me and my boyfriend will still be together working it out from a distance.
I did not mean to just stop talking about this but I have to go before I get emotional again . . .
The talk was me talking to him about whats going to happen in OUR future , and that went left really quick . All he replied with was "okayyy ? " As if i was talking to my self or my personal favorite " I don't know what to say" , i was a little hurt , all of this for what ? But I care and i started to fall for my boyfriend more and more , i cant give up now , i cant just let my relationship go downhill . By the way i told him , i feel like we are going down hill fast and i felt like there was nothing i could do about it and he said " Is that really how you feel ?" And i replied" Yes well I do not know" , I was scared to tell him yes and keep it that way. I want to fight for us , I am trying and distance and work is are biggest enemies at the moments : Its gotten so worse i see him once a week and if that none, I just need him to try with me . . . I need more from him mentally and physically i just do not know how to tell him with out shutting down. Next month could be hell for me or it could be great and me and my boyfriend will still be together working it out from a distance.
I did not mean to just stop talking about this but I have to go before I get emotional again . . .