I had to go away for a little while because life had just gotten real for me . And i am in the process of trying to survive , some of the consequences and some of the good things because of my actions. A lot of the things that has happened i blame me! Simply because it is time to move on , but i cant because of the traumatic things that has happened to me . They are starting to haunt me , as if i did them to myself yet the person that did do it takes no responsibility . At first i was just looking for him to say sorry , but a sorry will not fix my constant headaches and my visit to the hospital and doctors. At this point i have to let it go , before my life becomes something a cant fix . This is the time for me to seek God , for that he can comfort and protect me and take the pain away. Yet i am afraid , because i do not know what my future holds. What will happen to me , will i finally move on and trust God or will this burden over take me and eventually lead me to death ? All of these questions , makes me question my future , i am scared to death sometimes all i can say is Jesus. In hopes that he hears me and see the tears that i cry , wanting better and wanting him to forgive me. I have to survive , if i do not i will prove people that do not believe in me right. I cant be a screw up , i must become a success story as if my life actually does matter despite everything that has happened.
I should be back on here soon Thank you guys!
I should be back on here soon Thank you guys!