I think its time to move on from you , even though i cant ! I cant physically because i need your money for school... i know that makes me sound like a gold digger , but i will get what is mine no matter what i have to do . i know you expect me to do nothing with my life and become a bum , but that's not going to happen. I thank God , for his grace and mercy ! With you in my life , i don't know what i would do without God i mean honestly. At this point in my life i don't know , what life has come to... Everyday is a constant struggle , i would say i cant wait until i can get away from you but id be lying . Isn't that a shame even though you do me wrong i have to stay ,stay for some of the things i need. well really i cant say i have to stay , because i don't ! I choose to because , I'm determined to beat the stereotypes. The stereo of me being just like my brother when he turned 18 . He moved out on his 18th birthday because he couldn't take it anymore... i don't remember the whole story ... i just know he was like DEUCES ! And every since i have had to deal with people saying im going to do the very exact same thing ! Like im tired of being looked down upon , because people want to judge me based upon someone else and there actions. That is why im so terrified to move out. i need to be stable , because those bills aren't gong to pay themselves and my " parents" aren't going to help me out ! And how i know is because they said or he as in my dad said when i graduate i am on my own... It sucks , that is why i need all the support i can get so when i do move on , i can look back and say wow somebody did care.
The dance was so much fun last night , i was dropping it like it was hot LOL. I haven't had that much fun in a long time , I'm so glad i got a chance to experience everything when it comes to homecoming. Well except the game , i didn't go i mean i thought about it then i was just like nahhh i don't want to go haha. Some of my pictures came out great , to be honest but others where like owwweeee ! "if you know what i mean LOL" ... I had wore this black dress and this pearl necklace , and my date had worn a grey suite with a hat and an orange button up. We was looking good "i hope" hahha wait how do i not know ? ... It must have been a long night last night i mean i did stay out until 11 something and didn't go to sleep until 12 or 1 O,clock in the morning. so nobody can judge LMAOO.... I'm in such a great mood , i hope no one try's to kill my mood today ! But if they do , don't worry i will be on here telling you guys all about it, like i always do. I'm so excited to show my Big Sissy my photos from last night , i wonder what she is going to think . Oh well i guess i will find out later on... |
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