So lately i have not been getting along with a certain somebody... And right about now i am just over it and over them , because they are really just wasting my time. But without that person , i can not have somethings that i think i need . But with that person in my life i am somewhat miserable , because all i do is cry. I cry because the person is whom i cannot speak of simply because of judgments , that i would regret... So i will not say the name! Although i will say , the person hates my freaking guts , and i am so happy that they do ; because in a couple of months they will not matter , and it will not hurt me anymore. The person has made life hard to deal with , i almost ended what was given to me because of something they did to me. I just didn't care anymore , i had given up and now the 1 year anniversary is coming up... Yay yipppeeeeee i get to remember the day i almost died! Every single day as the day approaches , i get scared-er and scared-er. Like i honestly fear for my life as if the same thing will happen again , if they did it once trust and believe they will do it again. My heart is dropping because i am so scared , wanting to burst out in tears i must look strong ; not for me but of whom is looking for failure. Failure in the mindset to not overcome life and its obstacle of being a victim... I did not get to choose this life , it chose me ! ! !