I cant believe I still miss you , after all You have put me through ! I act like it's nothing, that I still want you and think about you . I should be sick with my self , why would I go back to you ? So you can treat me the same and mess around with every girl including me . But I'm the "One" you love ! How can you do this to me ; how can you make me fall in love with you again. Every time I think about you coming back , i get excited... But then I think about all our memories, good and bad .
And I just begin to get sad , because I want you but I don't need you ! It frustrates me the control you have over me . I can't continue to be submitted by you.. I need self control , I want self control because every time I come around you I get weak
. Like I'm some kind of doll ! If you don't play with me , I'm just there until I have your attention. But I continue to lose my mind reminiscing about our past , waiting for our future.
With your best friend wanting me , I shouldn't be all over you . Because he is actually here with me , while you are away! Do you even care that another man could possibly replace you ? Or do you think I'm just yours ; because everytime you do something I will just come running back to you everytime . But knowing me I will do exactly that so , I really can't blame you "at least for that".
Honestly I need to get to a point were I make up my mind . Either you love me and you wanna be with me and only me . Or , you wanna mess around and you just want to say you love me to see what you can get from me ? I'm ready to make a decision because my heart still yearns for you .
And I think I still Love you ........